...I have completely wiped this blog. Not like I wrote anything monumental in it anyway. And I am positive Paul is the only person who even knew this existed. Nevertheless, the reason that everything vanished- to make way for a new place to store things I find notable. These things include new articles, video clips, music, pictures, and quotes. I am making this my new database of "happiness" for all intensive purposes. Between not having the patience to make reeds, or the patience to learn a new instrument that doesn't cost 100 dollars a month to play, I have been desperate for a new outlet for quite some time.
And the first thing I want to start with is a track from an album I haven't been able to stop listening to for the last few weeks. I have a major weak spot for solo piano works. There is just something to intimate between the keys of a piano and the one letting the music consume them like some kind of drug. It's a gift I always longed for- that or being able to sing well.
You'll find that this piece follows a pretty standard/contemporary sonata form. And the thing that truly gets me about this is the development leading up to the recapitulation. (Holy crap, I haven't used words like this since Theory II!) The way it just builds, and just pronounces itself before dying off at the end... I bought this album about 2 years ago while I was packing up my bedroom to officially move out of my parents house. And ever since then, it has gotten me through a lot of hard times and much needed reflection. Music used to be the solid rock in my life. And ever since I left BGSU, that massive rock that I never thought could leave my sight has turned into the smallest pebble, easily discarded or forgotten. It wasn't until recently that I realized I had made a big mistake in doing this. I've lost who I wanted to be, what I wanted to be. My heart belongs something bigger than myself; the notes on a staff, the unsung melody, and the neglected oboe in the closet- This is where I should have been all along. How did I stray so far away from this? I dedicated my life to music for 5 years, and in 2 years, it's like it never even happened.
I need some joy in my life. Being an adult sucks. I mean a lot. Grown up decisions are hard, worrying about money and a job that feels like a dead end. How am I going to afford to take the chances in life if I can barely support myself? At least by listening to this, I can take a mini vacation from the real world and slip in Elysium for just a few minutes...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_li_hMbk0sE
Artist:Doug Hammer
Album:Solace
Piece:Sunrise
Stay Strong Sister!! I've found it important in my adult life to have hobbies...things that I can turn to that take my mind off "real life" for a little while. For me it's Comic Books & Sci-Fi, for you music and maybe other things.
ReplyDeleteAlong with hobbies, I think we all need a closer relationship with God. Sounds cheesy; I know, but in my life it's soooo true! When real life beats us down, sometimes we need something greater than ourselves to help pick us back up.
Don't give up!!